at the recent gynea visit, i also brought up the subject of tubal ligation.
in the end the options are clear that it is way way way better if daddy did it and not me, coz a woman's body is so complicated, as expected la, so is everything else about a woman! but when i approach this subject with daddy, (it's like a taboo subject) he gets so irritated and thinks i am pushing him off the cliff, saying we have plenty of time to think about it.
he thinks all we need to do is not do it at the "wrong time" or use all the right stuff or just plain control! is that really possible all the time? i want to be 100% sure....dun get me wrong, i love and adore my angels but 3 is enuff la.
i wanna be in control of my own body, i dun wanna leave things to chance, not that i am a crazy control freak but this is about my life!
for a guy just shoot and that's it...well basically that's all....but for a woman...it's a whole long process if something is "cooking in the oven" la. there's the crazy roller coaster ride of preggynausiousness for 4 months (if u are lucky), then the swollen out-of-shapy time with hormones going wild....then the bone crushing and pushing a watermelon out of a pee hole! not even talking about the risk we have to bear in the whole process, after that gotta start dealing with all the "excesses" accumulated!
no way. i wanna be 100% sure that it won't ever happen again, not leaving anything to chance....or as daddy said...if god wants us to have....blah blah blah.
i am not playing god....but i am also angry what if he dun do it....it ends up with me going thru a more dangerous op, taking all the risks on my poor body, and like i am doing it for myself...when it's actually for the family.
logically the answer is so simple...but emotionally and psychologically it's NOT!