True Blue Award

Thanks to this Lovely Mummy for cheering me up!

Finally no more messy toilet stuff...end of my yucky story! happy to close that chapter...phew! did lots of fun stuff this week, went facial, ate yummy food, christmas shopping, made paints for the girls...will blog about it later la, going to watch kitaro today...yahooo...

Dolphins are blue, so true blue, calm in the storm, they never sleep,so ever-present, they’re friendly, so amicable, accountable, dependable,and protective. This award is presented for bloggers who always stand by you!

This is a reward to all my blogger frens. Thanks for all your comments, advice and nice thots that cheered me up whenever i see them.

testing 1 2 3

Before going into the gynea office we were so optimistic about the whole test results. Then when we met the gynea and as she was explaining the statistics, the probability, the risk and the chances…even though ours are like only 1% (1 in 95), she made it sound so terrifying.

We asked all sorts of questions, saying that the scan showed a perfect baby, but she said even that is not guaranteed. Since i know numbers, I almost wanted to ask how the whole risk thing is calculated, what if I was a little heavier, what if I was the baby dates were not right, what if…but the knot in my tummy and my throat was already tightening and I tried my best to speak as normal as I can. I can feel blood draining from my face.

Actually the double test result has an error of about 40%, so go figure la!! Which means half the results are false…man why did I even bother to do the test…crazy or what??

The gynea even scolded me for doing the test since I wasn’t gonna do anything about the baby…like terminating, but at that time, I didn’t even realized that she was scolding, i was so numbed.

After walking out of the gynea office, my head was still swimming with the numbers and the statistics. I just trial behind daddy as we walked to the car...it was just like a bad dream.

I was still adamant that I would not pursue this further coz I have no intention of terminating, but daddy didn’t think so, but he dare not push it. He just needs to know!!!

Since we went down this horrible testing path…I guess we should just get it over and investigate further with the diagnostic test. I have no fear of needles and it’s just another test, so we went for our amnio.

The amnio test was almost painless and fast. Daddy was the nervous wreck and he wasn’t the one being poked! Man ah!

since we need to scan 1st before the amnio, the doc said it may be a girl...wah when daddy heard that he was ecstatic...beaming from ear to ear...then after we left the doc's off...he started smsing his frens and telling them he's gonna be daddy to 3 princesses! all i want is a normal healthy strong baby.

FOR YOUR INFO!!
Then we found out that there are a new test (yes!! never ending) that is able to screen for downs even when you are in the 1st trimester…should have know that earlier. It is non-evasive, just a blood test to test beta hcg and papp-a hormones. The detection rate is about 95%, which is great la! If only I knew about it…oh well, no more next time, just pass this info for your education la!

**still in the dumps, will really need to go see a gastrologist or someone who understands the tummy if this persist another week!

baby baby!!

Shitty Sunday, whole day in the dumps, lived next to the throne so that I could run there in time and dun even ask me how many times I sat there on that day. thanks to all the binging on saturday, i dunno which food is the cause of the whole crazy loo episode.

So today ran to the doc to get some meds so that it would stop, coz I think I lost 1kg in a day. Not bad for a very successful slimming program, unfortunately I was not aiming for that. worried about baby though.

By mid-day I was way much better, but I saw I had a missed call from my gynea. Any calls from her means bad news. I returned the call and the double blood test result turned out positive. I was disappointed but not devastated, since this test only tells me that I carry a higher risk but does not say anything else - just a statistical number and not a diagnostic tool. Coz all my scans have been very good so far, I have faith that all will turn out well when I see my gynea tomorrow. I have already decided not to do the amnio, daddy agrees with that too.

i spoke too soon...i am back in the dumps again...guess i have more reasons to visit the gynea tomorrow.

will see how tomorrow goes...hope tomorrow is a better day.



***additional info:
These are 'screening tests' that measure the level of hormones in the blood and provide an 'estimation of risk' for chromosomal abnormalities such as Down syndrome and Trisomy 18 and ventral wall defects (abdominal wall defect). *** (request from Mott)

baby policy!!

at the recent gynea visit, i also brought up the subject of tubal ligation.

in the end the options are clear that it is way way way better if daddy did it and not me, coz a woman's body is so complicated, as expected la, so is everything else about a woman! but when i approach this subject with daddy, (it's like a taboo subject) he gets so irritated and thinks i am pushing him off the cliff, saying we have plenty of time to think about it.

he thinks all we need to do is not do it at the "wrong time" or use all the right stuff or just plain control! is that really possible all the time? i want to be 100% sure....dun get me wrong, i love and adore my angels but 3 is enuff la.

i wanna be in control of my own body, i dun wanna leave things to chance, not that i am a crazy control freak but this is about my life!

for a guy just shoot and that's it...well basically that's all....but for a woman...it's a whole long process if something is "cooking in the oven" la. there's the crazy roller coaster ride of preggynausiousness for 4 months (if u are lucky), then the swollen out-of-shapy time with hormones going wild....then the bone crushing and pushing a watermelon out of a pee hole! not even talking about the risk we have to bear in the whole process, after that gotta start dealing with all the "excesses" accumulated!

no way. i wanna be 100% sure that it won't ever happen again, not leaving anything to chance....or as daddy said...if god wants us to have....blah blah blah.

i am not playing god....but i am also angry what if he dun do it....it ends up with me going thru a more dangerous op, taking all the risks on my poor body, and like i am doing it for myself...when it's actually for the family.

logically the answer is so simple...but emotionally and psychologically it's NOT!

tag max

finally time to do all my tags...will put all in this post...if i miss out any...tell me, then i masuk into this post summore...hahahah...looooong post la.

mega tags from laundryamah and WMD...both my school mates.


Shopping tips
wish i have more time and $$$ to do this...anyway, most of my shopping now is focus on my girls or house stuff...how boring!

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It’s very simple.

When you receive this tag, copy the whole list and add your own shopping tip to the bottom and pass it on.

• Wear comfy clothing when you’re shopping. You don’t wanna fuss with too many laces and buttons when you’re trying clothes on. http://rinnah-marketplace.blogspot.com/
• Choose stores offering some kind of reward program, e.g. purchase points, rebates or store coupons. Knowing how the program works and when to use them will save you a lot of money in the long run. http://kakishopping.giddytigers.com/
• Don’t wait until sales if you really like that particular piece of dress or shoes as your size could be sold out sooner than you realized. Just buy if you really like it, cause there is nothing much we can do once it’s gone, especially when you shopping abroad. Everyday health and beauty
• Make sure you bring your credit card/cash la! If not how to shop lei? http://laundryamah.wordpress.com/
• if possible, have a shopping list or not you may end up with 2 pairs of shoes, a shirt, toys and not what you intended to get! http://scribblesformyangels.blogspot.com/

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5 Links To 5 Own Posts
some history digging here...

Here are some specifications of the tag:
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1. Post 5 links to 5 of your previously written posts. The posts have to relate to the 5 key words given below.
2. Tag 5 other friends to do this meme. Try to tag at least 2 new acquaintances (if not, your current blog buddies will do) so that you get to know them each a little bit better.
3. Don’t forget to read the archived post and leave comments.
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Link ONE must be about family: Khoo-Koo-Klan ~ Gathering of the Klan

Link TWO must be about friends: Big Birthday Bash ~ My girls fun day

Link THREE must be about yourself: Another phat tag ~ Random facts about me

Link FOUR must be about your love: why i marry daddy ~ and the answers are...

Link FIVE can be anything you like: japan trip ~ yummylicious trip

Supposed to tag 5 people…dunno who la...brain drain after doing this tag!



The Age I Wish To Go Back
when i was a child, my weekends were so carefree, relaxing horizontally on the sofa watching telly with my dad, lying on his arms and we could do this the whole afternoon!

what homework or extra-curricular activities...there were no such thing long ago!


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Instructions:

Title: The Age That I Wish To Go Back To

Requirement: Write about the one age that you wish to go back to and why?

Tag Mode: 5 bloggers

1st - You leave their blog and post link and add to the list below.
2nd - Let the blogger you want to tag know they been tagged by comment in their blog or etc.
The Age that they Wish to Go Back to:
Amidrin wish to go back to age 22 to correct back some mistakes in life.
Lemonjude wish to go back to age 6 to enjoy kid’s life.
L’abeille wish to go back to any year but never return to age 28
Sweetpea wish to go back to, actually, just thinking about 17
Lovelymommy wishes to go back to age 21
Laundryamah wishes to go back to the eve of my wedding day
mommyof2angels wishes to be daddy's girl again


Tag 5 on 5
That is to have 5 answers to all questions and tag another 5 person.

5 things in my room: a queen bed, a super single bed, a single bed, loads of pillows and blankies
5 things I’ve always wanted to do: bungy, sky diving, parasailing, flying a plane, hot air balloning...yes i love heights and wanna be free as a bird!
5 things in my bag:keys, handphone, book, bank statements, vouchers
5 things in my wallet: money, lots of credit cards, lots of receipts, IDs, emergency info card
5 things I'm currently into: Facebooking, Blogging, Scrapping, trying to take nice photos...lepaking

now to tag 5 vulnerable ladies on this tag max:
babyboon
cutie princess mummy
demoments
grace family
lil' chumsy

17 weeks

went to check-up yesterday, from the scan, everything looks as normal as it can be (thank GOD!!)...head nice and round, two legs and 2 hands with 10 lil' fingers, nice body with a beating heart of 4 chambers, lungs, kidney and stomach all beautifully made. moving non-stop, even can see the baby sucking water, lucky not thumb, but one hand was scratching the head..itchy i guess! or thinking very hard.

i still went to do the double blood test...just to satisfy daddy.

as for the sex...sorry doctor said too blur...can't tell yet...maybe till next visit...stay tune la.

as for me...alamak...gained 3 whole kg! fei fei pulak, must stop those buffet ledi lor!! or the nite munchies...no lar kidding...i still can barely "squeeze" into some of my normal clothes...still. office no one knows about the bulge except for the few i have told, so i still can get away looking quite "normal"....maybe for another few weeks the most...

the only thing i am still waiting to blossom or bloom or booom is my boobs....when lah...is this gonna happen...hahahhahah....bloom now la, when i can get away looking sexy (still able to fit the sexy lingerie and not look too pregnant!

graduation

when i saw erika all prep-up in her graduation gown and square top...i felt a tinge of sadness...so fast all grown-up and "leaving school".

by end of this week, she will be closing this kindy chapter and entering a new chapter in her life...but i am also so proud of her...she has gone so far, achieved so much and is "moving on"!!



pictures of her graduation




when we got to the hall, erika was in bad mood, just woke her up from her beauty nap...concert starts at 7. her class teacher prepping her up for the big event.

graduation class of 2007

in full graduation costume.

in the concert, she acted as the water, and mommy had to make the costume....wah pengsan...gotta do sewing!! if u look closely at the blue kaftan, u can see that all the hand sewing all senget one! i remember in school it took me a year to complete an apron so it was a big achievement to get this done in a day, even if it is sewing 2 crooket lines. tried doing the head gear...in the end used teacher's one.

at the end of her drama, sitting and making funny faces.

27 going on 28 months

just can't wait to grow up...insist that i put on earring for her. since we haven't pierce her ears, i just hung the earrings on her lobes, almost the same effect and she love the attention and having something dangling on her face!









elli needs to sleep with her precious huge blankie and sometimes she drags along her comfort toys ~ her barney music mobile and even plates of dora or her ducky cup....hey there's no need for soft downy pillow for my princess. the other day at the mommy's blogger's gathering, she slept holding tightly to a sour cream pretzel...comfort food for sweet dreams!!



and since she is a milk guzzler...daddy says that her belly looks just like a milk belly where his looks like a beer one!!


elli would happily pull up her shirt to show off her swollen belly and even do a belly dance to prove that she's the cutest lil' angel!


(no pic of this la...***censored***) hahahaha

buy and sell

after weighing all our options, daddy and i finally decided to sell our beautiful house...lots of great memories here. we had our wedding here, erika and ellisa were born here and all the parties and family gatherings...a little heavy hearted to let it go.

we decided to engage an real estate agent so that we do not have the hassle of dealing with prospective buyers...makes our life a lil' easier!

new toy!

daddy just got us a huge big 42 inch flat screen tv...yahoooo...no more squinting our eyes to watch our fave. programs. in fact mommy can just take off her glasses and watch tv....hahahaha

now all we need is fantastic looking audio racks to complement the tv and stack up all the dvd player, and other equipments or gadgets that daddy collected over the years and also hide all the unsightly wires!

legal tangle

Everytime I drive, Erika will moan and groan that I would knock something and get us into loads of trouble...see how much confidence my girl has in my driving skills.

*touch wood* but if any mishap happens, I know of some great truck accident lawyers which could pull us out in a jiffy!!

eh...are we lucky or what??

cash out from paypal

my good fren just told me that paypal can cash out in malaysia...to find out more go to this website

http://pages.ebay.com.sg/sea/paypal/withdraw.html

finally after all these months of wondering when it will ever happen, it's finally here. the best part is the fees are minimal compared with the "older" options.

great opportunity to improve the figues in my checking account!

now i got more incentive to slog at those sponsored post...well this money may come in handy when i am really broke!! and need to break the piggy bank.

so far my slogging has made daddy very happy coz he could get his clubs, his car toys, his biking hobby stuff and more golf toys on my account!!! see who's the shopaholic??

boys toys

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